Musings from doubt

  Another version of those famous verses puts it like this:   “Look! I stand at the door and knock. If you hear my voice and open the door, I will come in, and we will share a meal together as friends.   When reading this recently, I imagined what might happen if Jesus turned up at my door as in this passage. I'd go to the door and open it and Jesus would be there. He says 'can I come in?' I look around and I see stuff all over the sofa. There are plates on the floor and the laundry is drying in the corner. The sink is full of plates and pans, and I'm sure I can see something growing on one of them. I am wearing pyjamas and I haven't showered. (I was tempted to say that I really wouldn't live like this, but if the inside of my head is like this, then I am!) I look at all this and hesitate, and say 'maybe another day, right now isn't a good time'. I close the door. I'd like to say it would happen differently, but in reality, I think that's h

  I was at a meeting the other day and everyone was so jolly positive and upbeat. Which is really hard if you're not feeling either positive or upbeat. This morning I read this verse: Rejoice in our confident hope. Be patient in trouble, and keep on praying. (Romans 12:12, NLT) It made me think of a post on Facebook written for parents who are having to home-school again, telling them they don't have to do an amazing job. They just have to manage, just do enough. This verse gives me three things I have to do in this situation. 1) Rejoice in our confident hope. Jesus has got this. He is making all things new. One day ' He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.' (Revelation 21:4). One day He will take me home, and until then I will rejoice as I look forward to it. 2) Be patient in trouble. We are in trouble right now. It is really sucky and it might get worse. It will be a lon